Fair Weather Fan
As much as I hate to admit it, I have always been a fair weather fan of sorts. For me, this was a hard fact to face, and a very difficult lesson to learn. Doesn’t everyone want to believe that they are filled with deep seeded, prolific passion for one thing or another? That they are, goals and unconscious habits alike, driven by purpose?
This illusion is sustained so long as that fair weather persists. It is not until weeks of rain that our true character is unmasked.
Upon what felt like endless stretches of rain in Dunedin, this unappealing attribute surfaced quite obviously in me. The cold and hard truth was that these tiny little droplets of water that fall from the sky had seriously decreased my willingness to engage in just about any activity. I cannot even imagine where my motivation level would be if I ran into a real obstacle- Like say, frozen water…
Fortunately, this realization came at a point in my life where time was of the essence. A time where I was more aware of the ticking clock than I ever have been before my move abroad. Limited time meant limited days, which meant I could only allow the rain to steal so many hours before I would find myself on a flight back home.
Time, which is always scrutinized for it’s fleeting property, provided me with the pressure I needed to act. To decide, commit, manifest. Time forced me out of my comfort zone where small hurdles like rain were no longer able to passively override my decision to act. Whether the decision was to take on the rain and spend a rather soggy weekend camping, or to embrace it instead by curling up on the couch with my flatmates and a movie, I was a able to actively enjoy each drop simply by making a choice.
Time which acts in such minuscule increments often gets lost is our everyday habits and overlooked in our extravagant future oriented goals. But time isn’t the problem, time isn’t running away with tiny segments of our lives, as we portray it. It is there all the time, it is the spark to life, just waiting to catch our attention.
My time in NZ taught me no matter the forecast, and no matter the obstacle that is placed before me, it is my decision that shapes the outcome. And I have decided I will no longer live the life of a fair weather fan.